If I weren't so concerned with SEO (search engine optimization), I would have called this post, "Life Under Renovation," or "Before and After." That is the current overriding theme of my existence, and I'm finally getting a glimpse of the energizing, celebratory phase of reaching the "After" point.
In the spirit of "Before and After," I bring you these 2 before and after recipes. The other night, we roasted butternut squash, the same way it was served long ago at my mother's table: Roasted in the oven with brown sugar, butter, and spices. It was tender and sweet and simple and good. But there was a bit leftover, so I renovated it, giving it a metaphorical sand, stain, and varnish job.
This past year has been one of the most transformative of our lives. So many dreams have come true, and all at once. We found a home town and solid ground beneath our feet. We took the wheels off our gypsy wagon and parked it, moving straight into the 30-year-old Ranchito: our
We went from being long-time renters ("Uh, hey there's squirrels in the wall. Call the landlord.") to do-it-yourselfers ("Uh, hey there's woodpeckers drilling holes in the potting shed. What are we gonna do?"). We're building new friendships and rebuilding old ones, and enjoying all that comes with staying put. We found our first dog-- something we've wanted for such a long time-- whose furry little face has increased the smiles in this household by at least 50%.
We're also cleaning up old messes, winnowing through our stuff, and feeling the need to set good habits for every aspect of our new long-term life: health, community, career, family, marriage.
It's so wonderful, and tiring, and exciting, and stressful all at the same time. A giant paradigm life shift. There is no more running away to some tropical surf locale at the end of the AK heli season. Now we're year-round people. There is a lot of responsibility that comes along with that. If there's something we don't like, we have to face it head on, and change it. It's a lot of work. Instead of going hiking or fishing on our days off, we go to our second job: renovating our new house. As Noah put it, "R & R has taken on a new meaning in my life. Free time isn't about rest and relaxation anymore, it's about repairs and renovations."
Sometimes I have to remind myself-- like when we're digging a 6-foot deep hole around the chimney (for repairs)-- that these are good problems to have. We asked for this. For the last decade or so, and especially the last 5 years, we bounced around the West coast in a Space Pod, which was a tremendous and fun adventure, but had it's own set of challenges. There was no Mother Ship to go home to. A few years ago I began to wish very hard for a place to hang my hat, and now there it hangs! Right next to the work gloves, shovel, pooper scooper, and rake.
I think these life changes are always sprinkled with a hefty dose of yin and yang, be it finding a home, picking up and moving, starting a family, changing careers, or accomplishing goals. The duality of realizing one's dreams is equal parts joy and hard work, but it seems that the duality itself is what makes these things rewarding.
We've recently renovated my home office. Here's the before:
Scuffed up poo-beige walls, with a wallpaper border of (what else?) puppies in baseball hats!!
Here's the after:
After testing (and scrapping) half a dozen different yellow paint samples, from highlighter yellow to grey poupon, I decided to do a faux technique called color washing. I liked the earthy, vintage feel it created, and it didn't require sunglasses to be in the room once it was painted.
Noah invested in a mitre saw and router (since we're becoming construction workers) and we sanded some knotty pine to update the cheesy 1970's trim. We replaced the beat-up old accordion closet doors with new ones.
He and his brother Caleb did most of the wood work. Thanks Caleb! I took advantage of some fall sales to get some new office furniture, and lighting on the cheap. Someday soon, I'm going to put a little leather club chair and ottoman in this corner, so I have a cozy place to sit and read.
We thought this project would take a week. It took almost 2 months. That's pretty much par for the course. Things I guessed would take a couple months, will take a year. Renovations I thought would begin next year, are already shifting to 3 to 5 year goals. But completing my office has put such a spring in my step. To walk in there and know that we did it ourselves, and to feel like, "Yeah, this is my very own creative space,"... is huge.
Something in me that was all tense and unorganized, just unravelled and relaxed. All the scattered frustration of living out of storage units, and moving every 6 months is over. All my important things are here, and by putting the work into obtaining this dream, I can see now that big things are going to happen in my little yellow room. This is the place where I will make my contribution to the world. I have given myself the tools to succeed. WOW. That's cool. [happy dance : ) : ) : ) ]
Along with our house, I'm renovating my career. Food-G readers, this site is about to become something so much bigger and better than this little blog. It will be the same in all the right ways, but much improved. I'm taking the puppies-in-baseball-hats wallpaper down from Food-G, and putting up a new coat of paint. The ball has been rolling all summer, with business plans, and diagrams, and logo designs, and all kinds of ideas about how I'm going to turn this into something so wonderful, and useful, and inspiring...and it's all for YOU. If you have any thoughts, fears, desires, or requests regarding what you want to see on here, please drop me a comment. I appreciate your feedback!
Like everything, my blog renovation is taking 5 times longer than I thought it would, but I'm going to quote Noah, my Bodhisattva, again, who says that, "If something is taking longer than you think it should, it probably means you're doing it right."
I hate that saying, but he's right.
Without being able to tell you too much about my new blog, I give you these "Before and After," recipes. Great cheers were heard around the table when I recently brought this Butternut Mac and Cheese to a hunter's potluck. One of my most long-time friends shared with us the tenderloins from his freshly killed antelope and deer. Lucky us! They were amazing, marinated in ginger, sesame, and lemon, and grilled rare. Both of the recipes below are well-suited accompaniments for wild game. 'Tis hunting season after all.
BEFORE: Roasted Butternut Squash with Butter and Brown Sugar
Slice a medium butternut squash in half lengthwise, and remove the seeds. Pierce the flesh several times with a fork. Place cut side up on a rimmed baking sheet and sprinkle with:
2/3 cup brown sugar, packed
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/8 teaspoon nutmeg
1/8 teaspoon clove
a few small pats of butter
Roast in a 350 degree oven until very tender when pierced with a knife, at least 1 hour. Reserve 1 1/2 cups of the squash to make the Mac and Cheese.
AFTER: Winter Squash Mac and Cheese with Browned Butter and Sage (serves 6 to 8)
This isn't diet food, but it's what you bring to the potluck when you want to be the most popular person there. It also makes a satisfying meatless supper, and pairs nicely with Blue Moon Pumpkin Ale. The interplay of sweet and savory flavors is what makes this dish so unique and satisfying.
1 1/2 cups roasted winter squash (butternut is best), mashed
2 pinches cinnamon
1 pinch clove
1 pinch freshly grated nutmeg
1 1/2 teaspoons brown sugar
(OMIT the above 4 ingredients if you've already roasted the squash using the "Before" recipe)
4 tablespoons salted butter
10-12 sage leaves, chopped
1 medium yellow onion, diced
2 tablespoons flour
2 cups milk
1 teaspoon kosher salt
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground nutmeg
3 cups grated sharp cheddar cheese, divided
2 tablespoons salted butter, melted
2/3 cup Panko bread crumbs
12 oz. dried pasta shells, elbows, or penne
Grease a 3-quart baking dish, and preheat oven to 350 degrees. If you prepared the "Before" recipe, simply mash 1 1/2 cups of the leftover squash. Otherwise, combine 1 1/2 cups roasted squash with brown sugar and spices.
Add flour to onions and stir to combine. Add squash and stir to combine. Slowly pour in milk a little at a time, stirring to prevent lumps. Add salt, pepper and nutmeg, and bring to a simmer, stirring constantly until sauce has thickened. Add 2 1/2 cups of the cheese and stir until melted and incorporated into sauce. Remove from heat.
When pasta has reached al dente, drain and add to cheese sauce, stirring to combine. It will look like a lot of sauce, but don't worry; Much of the moisture will be absorbed or evaporate during baking. Pour into prepared baking dish.
In a small bowl combine melted butter, Panko crumbs, remaining sage, and remaining cheese. Stir to combine and sprinkle evenly atop mac and cheese.
Place in preheated oven and bake uncovered, 45 to 50 minutes or until bubbly and golden. If topping doesn't look brown enough at this point, broil 1 to 3 minutes or until golden brown and crisp.